RiotFaerie

If you're looking for me...

2010-09-24T12:01:00.004+08:00

I've moved to tumblr because I feel there are more readers there. www.riotfaerie.tumblr.com.

I will not neglect this blog though so I'm changing this blog into an art blog, where I post in most of my artworks. I'm also changing this blog into a tutorial/wip blogs and will answer questions when needed (if there is someone reading this lame blog).

I'm looking forward for your cooperation.

2010-07-29T00:22:00.001+08:00

Sigh. Although I'm born in July, this year's July really brings me down. I'm so not looking forward for my so-called 'birthday'.

Uncontrolable Rant

2010-07-11T19:37:00.003+08:00

No one reads my blog anyways (except Adi...) so I'm just gonna rant here throughout and I don't give a flying fuck.

I've been really angry and cranky recently since Friday, the starting of our 3 weekend holiday. It was suppose to be a fun thing. It's suppose to be something I look forward to and enjoy...

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

They're not giving me any breaks. Not asking me any considerations. OR asking me how I would feel. And afterall I've done to them? Seriously, I've made so much sacrifice to them, they would never see me cry in front of them because how painful it felt to do these things without anyone giving me any appreciation.

All I wanted is to be treated right. If you know I hate the fact you use my car without buying the fuel, then don't use the fucking car. Do I need to tell you this? YOU'RE FUCKING 3 YEARS OLDER THAN ME!!

If you know that it's hard for me to save money for marriage. Why are you willing to ask money from me? I've given away 98 fucking % to you guys and I only had 2% for savings. Usually use for emergencies.

Do you know how hard it is to be a teacher in the morning and have to do other things to earn money throughout the afternoon to night? I have fucking insomnia because of this. I did commissions and recently braided bracelets so I could make money for marriage. I was happy to finally collect $50 for all the extra hard work I did... it went to another emergency caused.

You know how painful it felt to be keeping that money for something life-changing and giving it away for something not worth my time? It hurts so deep inside and I realize how it felt like to have dreams scattered to millions of pieces over and over and over and over again.

And this is all the thanks I get?

Someday, you would know how it feels like without me around to support you.

You dumb fucks.

Nervous Countdown...

2010-06-05T12:58:00.005+08:00

Ok. I'm performing in a gig next week (11th June 2010). I'm performing solo...

My name's in the poster!! XD

I used to perform a lot as a solo back then. Since I joined a band, I was inactive in performance for about 3 to 4 years. Now, I'm finally back out there on stage to sing my heart out. Yes, without a band. It was a last minute thing and I was told to sing for them. So I took the offer.

Anyways.

IT'S THE SCHOOL HOLIDAY!!!!

17 days of holiday in fact. I can't wait to just chill and do a lot of artworks. ^w^ My first aim during this h0liday is to get well from the coughs that I have been having. I want to practice singing as much as I could.

And I want to clean up my room. >x<"

I guess I could clean up my room later. I was thinking of redecorating my room. Now I'm thinking I'm not really sure I can do all that during the holidays.

Now... my main concern is...

WHAT TO WEAR ON THE GIG!? O__O"

The Sun Will Set For You...

2010-05-30T11:42:00.004+08:00

This took me weeks as I busied myself with the Alice works. It started even before the contest and I didn't have the time working on it.

Made entirely out of Adobe Photoshop CS4... with reference.

I'm thinking of moving to tumblr soon. Still thinking about it.

Oh Alice, dear. Where have you been?

2010-05-23T12:09:00.004+08:00

Here's some of the entries I submitted for the 'Picture Yourself in Wonderland' contest on Deviant Art. Click on the image for a full view.

'Follow the White Rabbit'

'I'm Not a Flower'

'Like a Cat'

'My Snow White Queen'

I want to give Red Queen a try but I'm busy making other things for now. I got my preschool reading analysis to finish, Lesson plans for week 20, business cards to design, and portraits to finish. I just need to do these things then I could do Red Queen. ^w^

Tea Time

2010-05-18T01:42:00.005+08:00

'Tea Time'

I wish I can has tea... or coffee... mainly coffee.

But hey, I'm doing just great without coffee. Mainly because I quit for almost 3 years without them.

Anyhoot, it's 1:25 friggin' am and I still can't sleep. Bugger. I pray I wouldn't fall asleep when I'm teaching. It's a no-no.

I made this for the contest in deviantart (Picture Yourself in Wonderland). Took some pictures and Adi suggests that I should immediately fix the picture due to deadline. Gots more to come. ^w^

Stuck

2010-05-15T21:15:00.005+08:00

I browsed around the 'net and my usual Deviant Art and I stumbled upon this:

I'm thinking of joining because:

1. I love the movie
2. I love Tim Burton, Danny Elfman and Colleen Atwood
3. I love fairy tales
4. I love dressing up/cosplay
5. I want to experiment

And I'm thinking of photo manipulations but I need a cameraman (I can't take photos of myself) and a scene from the movie that I could follow/copy. And I maybe trying out either Alice or Chesire Cat.

I want to join for fun but at the same time.. I want to see if I could win something (I've never win any art related competitions... I'm so sad.)

Anyone reading this... got some ideas?

EDIT:

I found some clothes that could relate to either Alice OR the Red Queen... Bummer...

March 1st

2010-05-06T17:56:00.004+08:00

March 1st of last year was one of those toughest day of my life. My boyfriend (then, 4 years together) was involved in a car accident. He had internal brain injuries and was in a coma for 3-5 days and was in a semi-coma for 5 months. He woke up after that and his first words were 'Ma, aku kan ke jamban' (Ma, I want to use the toilet). He was unable to walk, get up and do things of his own. When I first heard his voice over the phone, I've never felt happier. After talking on the phone with him, I cried instantly and told the good news to my family. We visited him that weekend.

Today, I was browsing around facebook while making tutorials. I stumbled upon a status of a someone and it says something to do with a birthday greeting and also missing him after he's passed. I instantly wonder what's up so I browse around (like a little snoop. I'm like a stalker...) and found the guy's facebook. Apparently, he had a car accident and passed away on March 1st this year. He had a girlfriend and they were together for a year.

I could relate to the girl and I could not help but cry. Knowing that she had lost someone so close to her I felt her pain. But then I realize I can't completely relate to her because I'm the lucky one.

March 1st last year, Adi had a car accident and he survived.
March 1st this year, her boyfriend had a car accident and he passed away.

I looked at this girl and it made me wonder, 'This would have happened to me.', 'What will do?', 'Will I find someone else?'

I'll leave that answer on the alternate world of me.

I'm truly blessed to have him in my life... still. ^w^

p/s: I may not know you in real-life (or in facebook). My deepest sympathy to the girlfriend of the deceased boyfriend. May he be in a better place and you'll be together again someday. Al-Fatihah and happy birthday...

Nervous

2010-05-01T00:05:00.004+08:00

Alright, I doubt anyone reads my blog 'cos I know I'm a lousy blogger. So here goes...

I'm in a side project band and we're called 'Silent Serenade'. It's a two member band, like She&Him. One's a singer, the other is a guitarist. We play acoustic songs and covers.

Apparently, we've caught attention a dude who's a 'talent agent'(?). And without auditions (and in less than a month), we got signed in. So... we're performing live in JP this month. Maybe from 14th til 16th.

I'm super nervous. I pray to God things go well. >x<

And what concerns me the most, since 'Silent Serenade' is a duo band that plays acoustically, it's normal to being nervous and being so concern of singing on stage....

I, on the other hand, concern about WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO WEAR?!

I don't know what to wear. Seriously, I don't. I like to dress up. Usually, during performances (solo) or cosplaying, I would doll up. But performing for the first time on stage in a band... I don't know what to wear... I would end up wearing the usual (and casual) sleeveless with cardigans, sneakers (or low heeled boots) and just a normal (un-skinnied) torn jeans.

Will that fit the image? >x<"

I need serious help...

Oh... My... GAWD!!

2010-04-15T00:10:00.003+08:00

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

It's friggin' midnight and I want to sleep...

But my 10k is almost reached!

I wonder why this is important to me? Perhaps the fact I've gained fans of my art... like... very slowly. Yes, it took me 4 years to get that 10K. But I guess it's worth it. Besides... I hardly draw. I just wish I could though...

I've drew my 10K kiriban artwork to celebrate my 10K-ness but hardly had the time colouring the out. Maybe tomorrow... As long as I stay away from the internet for once in a while. LOL.

Got portraits pending too. XD

*Edit*

I REACHED THE FRIGGIN' 10K ALREADY!! FINALLY!!

Like a Bee...

2010-03-12T11:38:00.003+08:00

I've been staring at this blog for quite a while now. 3 months worth of staring. I wanted to type something in but I had no idea what to type.

Some blogger I am.

Well, what had happened this past 3 months? Let's review!

January:

It's the New Year! So, Happy Belated New Year everybody! (Late. I know)
Basically, I've tons of art works that I planned to do but never have the time working on it because I was busy with Preschool. The usual stuff, profiling, teaching, getting used to the pupils, etc...

And it was Teah's b'day on the 11th! I gave her a little something-something. I'm glad she loved it. Say herro to...

Ain't he a cute little butt appreciator?

HeartbuttNYA! is created by three random BFFs. Made out of acrylic paint and Sharpie marker pen. Base is from Marvel's Blank Mug Figurine.

February:

- I was given a task by the school to teach the girls in school to dance the traditional dance. Which I did but I haven't come up with the position and stuff. I am definitely screwed.

- Been a busy bee by then. Have the intention to do artwork but couldn't put my hands on it.

- I decided to open up some commissions on portrait drawing. $7 for an A4 piece of paper. I'm giving away my original drawings. *Applicable for Bruneians only

- A new headmaster for our school. New headmaster = new rules for school.

- I've been an extreme workaholic by this time.

- Offer to audition for the studio that made 'A Band Once'.

- I've taken a break from the band for a few months. There's just too many drama for the moment.

March:

- Worked on classroom decorations, struggle to become a better teacher, trying to complete all the school office work, attending workshops and seminars.

- Been sleeping at 1am almost every night. Don't know why!

- I began to have neck pains, shoulder pains, back pains and also having trouble breathing. I shrugged and thought that I just need to sleep on it.

- Busy working on Japanese Language and Cultural Week 2010. I was told to design the Big Ikebana and became a Fashion Advisor for the Fashion show. Me likes.

- Adi won't be seeing me the whole month 'cos 1st March is the day he had the car accident, a year ago... Syukur Alhamdulillah. He's up and going and doing great! <3 you, dear~~ Hope we get to see each other soon (we see each other last night. Less than an hour time together. Worth it.)

- Been having horrible headaches for the past week.

- Took MC from work, went to the clinic and get my health checked. The doc says that I've been working too hard. Based on the MC, he wrote that I have 'headaches/ Body malaise'. I researched on it afterwards and didn't know that it could be a serious thing. O_O The doc forbids me from working for a few days.

- Going to watch Tim Burton's (version of) Alice in the Wonderland with Teah!! Nyaaaaaa~~ I can't wait!!

So basically, I've been working my butts off 'cos I want to do my best. And in addition of mental stress from work and personal life. Hehe. Ah, at least I got my rest (I was doing work at home. But not massive.). I didn't get to see how's the Japan Language and Culture week going in UBD. Planned to go today but Teah dragged me to watch Alice. Yay!!

May update more soon~~

p/s: Oh, did I mention that I've lost a lot of weight now? From 56.5kg to 52kg. O_O"

DevMeet 2009 and a Date with The Wolf.

2009-12-21T22:30:00.010+08:00

It was a yesterday event and I went there early in the morning, left for 2 hours (on a date with 'the Wolf') and came back to see various characters came to life. I'm pretty amazed how everyone looked like. Sadly, I wouldn't be able to take pictures of them 'cos I was busy with other things too (like walking around serving cookies) >w<" But there are a bunch of pictures taken by some people.

Me as the waiting 'Red Riot Hood' and Sharon as a girl in the Yukata. Picture (c) ZhakuRo Sue Yee

Among the three of us (the Idrus siblings), Combat (dressing up as a SWAT member) and Najib (dressing up as Luffy from One Piece) are the popular ones. I'm just... around. >x<"

Combat cosplaying as... well... Combat (SWAT member)

Najib cosplaying as 'Luffy' from One Piece

Pictures (c) Chong Hock Toynation

Overall, I had ton of fun, I've meet wonderful people there. I'm definitely going for the next DevMeet. The question is... who am I dressing up as? *think*

.:: I went missing for 2hrs+ ::.

Oh, I have a reason for that. I went out with Adi. Hang out and eat Japanese food~ Yay! He went to look for ramen but the ramen served at Misato (The Mall) tastes like kolo mee... O_O" So his desire for ramen is not fulfilled. Hope I get to see him again and so he could eat real ramen.

And he gave me lolipops, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince DVD and an Official Linkin Park: Songs from the Underground CD!! Ah~ He made my day (I was actually very VERY angry at someone early that morning. But he came and cheered me up. Bless his heart).

The hug was... *sigh* I want hugs like that again. >x<" I'll post up the pictures of the gifts soon.

Can't Sleep. I Has Tummyache...

2009-12-13T02:47:00.004+08:00

So I end up sketching some quick portrait work and photomanipulate it! *Yays!!!*

'Original piece'

'Affected version'

Yeah... and it was a quick sketch...

2009-12-09T16:07:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD!! HOW CUTE IS THAT?!

I was dead bored just now and decided to look for pictures for my next portrait art and then I stumble upon this site and how Alyson Hannigan has this thing on dressing up her first child, Satyana Denisof. IT'S SO ADORABLE!! >x<

I'm Pretty Blank...

2009-12-08T21:39:00.003+08:00

I haven't been updated to this blog. I've stared at this blank post for several times now, thinking what to put up...

NOTHING!!

Except, maybe, now it's the school holiday and I finally get that rest that I lack of. *woot!!*

Anyways, my hair is getting pretty thicker now (naturally) and I feel like getting it cut. Perhaps I would go for the hairstyle that I had last year?

Alright, I don't want to look vain or anything but I really like this hairstyle!

And apparently, my hairstylist couldn't imitate this hairstyle. I don't know why! I might be going to another salon to get this haircut (since I had one just like this at a different salon in the first place...)

Nyeh... Idk.

And also, I want to draw but I don't know what to draw. In a massive artblock-age at a very wrong timing!

So malas to do work~ -_-"

Surrounding by Light

2009-10-16T14:09:00.003+08:00

So, I've been busy recently, but I feel good enough. Maybe 'cos I feel like I've been surrounded with my love ones, BFFs, friends and family. I'm truly blessed.

I think I'm already well adjusted comparing to I was last year (or earlier this year). It's great to know that I'm on track.

I've entered this deviantArt contest by Monty Oum (check this guy out! He's amazing!)

And for his latest animation, he asked deviant Artists to design him Kairi's Dress Form and Keyblade design. There are six types of form:

- Wisdom Form
- Valor Form
- Master Form
- Final Form
- Anti Form
- Limit Form

It's somewhat like Sora's

http://i202.photobucket.com/albums/aa49/SmexySasori/Kingdom_Hearts_Desktop_by_Ever_Rin.jpg

Those who win will have their designs made in the animation AND perhaps gained recognition. I'm anxious for this. I've finished three works and will post it up on my deviantArt . I shouldn't have my hopes up to win. >x< style="text-align: center;">WELCOME BACK, ADI!!

and

CONGRATS, T!!

I love you guys both. *hugs*

This Year is Different

2009-09-19T23:26:00.005+08:00

-==Anniversary==-

It's 19th September 2009. 5 years ago, you brought a shy girl out to watch a movie, you let her walk with you side-by-side to do the Wizard of Oz skip to the communist store, watching Liverpool playing while eating a late dinner at Mamih, then you brought her home and kissed her on the cheeks and gave her a major blush-fest. Those words you mentioned to her. Unforgettable.

5 years later. You're sitting on your bed, watching Astro all day. Your left arm stuck at 90 degree angle while your almost-healed right hand text me to say that you love me.

You remembered.

Gosh-darn it. I'm the happiest girl in the face of the earth.

This year is different. Every year we get to relive our first moments together. Watching movies, walk around and do dorky stuff like standing at the top-most level of the Mall, making paper airplanes then throw them to the crowds and ran away so the angry, yet suspicious, crowd down below wouldn't be able to catch us.

This year, we didn't get to celebrate like we used to. All because of distance. I've spent almost the whole year, thinking what to give you. And today, I just came up with this. Here's a gift for you, Adi.

'Leaving On a Jet Plane' (Cover) by Fae Idrus from Fae Idrus on Vimeo.

I've almost lost you, and I'll try my best not to let that happen again. You're the best thing that have ever happened to me. Like cookies and milk. ^w^ With all my heart, I just wanna say that I <3 you. Thank you for being with me, still. -==Artwork Updates==- Alright, aside from the mush-mush, you thought I might've lazed around, huh? XD Well, I've been pretty busy with work recently but now that it's a holiday, I've got to do bunch of artworks. Yay! Expect more to come this week. I've been freelance working with BAG, my band mate (my drummer) is working under there and he suggest them to ask me to make an animation. I haven't been doing animation for 2 years but I'm giving it a shot. They liked it very much, especially my originally designed characters; BubbleHead and BubbleMini. They liked it so much that they're making my BubbleMini their own mascot! That's awesome! XD I just hope things will run well.

RESTART from Fae Idrus on Vimeo.

Actually, I've edited the video with smoother movements and better font and color. But I got too lazy to upload them. My internet connection isn't great today...

I'm currently working on another fan-art. Something a little different, I guess. It'll be up VERY soon. :3

I've been watching movies (DVDs) recently too and I cried at happy endings. Is this normal to you guys?!

Having New Stuff Cheers You Up

2009-07-29T08:26:00.003+08:00

And that's kinda true too. It was a little unexpected. I went home and realize that my room finally got aircon. Yay~ But my room was hella messy 'cos they removed my table where I put most of my stuff. And later after that, my mom forced to go to the bank with her (for about 6 times now since last week?) and there's this music store next to the bank and I told my mom that I wanna 'survey'. So I looked around and found what I like. They asked me to give it a try and it's not so bad. Next thing I know, my mom immediately bought it for me... >w< Thank you, Mommeh.

So I placed the new keyboard (It's a Casio [even though I wanted a Yamaha or Roland or KORG] CT-810) to where my table was before. It looked nicer there... and I don't where I could put my other stuff (the stuff that used to be on the removed table). So, in the end, I put it to the side 'cos my mom suggests I should buy a cabinet.

I talked to Adi in the phone for about an hour. Trying to refresh his memory after the accident. He forget things like Faiz's real name (but he remembers his nickname instead. 'Combat'), the date yesterday and some stuff about his camera and his red car.

In the evening, Mom wants to bring us out for dinner, for once. And we ate at PizzaHut~ I haven't eaten for a quite a while. (I'm sure more than 4 months). It was phaaaan~ It's funny that we ordered so much and yet I still have room to eat more. OwO Boh.

Went home, wear my PJ's and started to play the keyboard. Getting the hang with the system. So far, I'm pretty cheerful yesterday. ^w^

I like JellehBelleh... (look at my status on fb. The song was in my head while munching on them.)

TEAH! NAD!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU GIRLS!!! XD

... Mmm...Lemon flavor.

The Things BFFs Do

2009-07-16T10:28:00.002+08:00

Yeah... We tend to be VERY dorky. Well, that's about a decade of BFFs for you~

PS: I love you girls. *Huggles.*

2009-07-13T23:26:00.004+08:00

My back is killing me. I should really stop carrying too many things to school everyday. It's painful now. I should try sitting on a chair when doing artworks from now on. Or a bed or something.

Anyway, here's something new. Not much but I wanted to make a tribute. Just to say thank you to him for that little girl in me. :3

Click on the photo for my tribute. While you're at it, visit my gallery. XP Promo lah tu.

Bah. I'm gonna go downstairs and eat with Qilah. Ia pajal. She wants to steal my art.

Buktinya:

2009-07-05T10:30:00.002+08:00

The last day of 'extended' school holiday. Tomorrow's a working day. Well, good things must come to an end. XD I'm gonna spend time on doing my lesson plan, and by 2PM, got this BJFA-UBD thing going on in UBD. Since I'm a senior, I'll have to be there. XD

And I had my haircut last Friday... and truth to say, I'm not completely satisfied.

Yeah, I just woke up. I brushed my teeth alreadeh~

Maybe I'll get some bangs? And I tried asking them to color my hair but it doesn't work. So, perhaps, next month I'll get that done using professional tools. Saja, spoil kan diri, as advised from Ka.Tini. XD

Maybe I'll bring my guitar later?

2009-06-14T16:06:00.003+08:00

I was just browsing around in my deviantArt and figured, 'why didn't I just put up my recent art post?'. So I'm gonna do it. Just to fill this darn quiet blog. >x<

So there you have it. I made this last night from 5 and finished it around 6. I should've just kept drawing 'cos I realize that there are bunch of portrait artists out there spending about 6+ hours finishing one portrait. I usually spend 3 hours max. I'm complaining? Yes. Well, I feel that the more time I spend on drawing a portrait, the more detail it'll get. Reason why I didn't spend 7+ hours on an art? I don't know.

It's good to draw again. I missh it SO much! I may be busy this week during the hols but I don't give a shit. I'm gonna draw as much as I WANT! XD

And oh, visited Adi just now. He's healthier, noisier too. His left eye is now alligned with his right eye. As I left, he yelled some more. I gave him an mp3 player and he fell asleep.

Now, I feel like coloring my hair red and put some highlights on...

I Wanna...

2009-05-25T09:53:00.004+08:00

I wanna do something a little special today. Like wearing a skirt and make me feel 'girly'. I wanna appreciate life. Just to celebrate Adi's 28th birthday today. :3 I wanna sing, I wanna be dorky, I wanna clean my room and make it look pretty so I could come to my room feeling relax and stress-free. I wanna let him know that I want to smile the whole day today 'cos I am blessed that he's alive and that he exists to change my world. I wanna blow bubbles in the wind, and remembered the time when he sat next to me, admiring the sunset. And take photos of nature and moments.

I wanna let him know how much he means to me.

Happy 28th Birthday, Ayg.

Get well soon, Sleepy Bear.

It's been a while...

2009-05-15T17:44:00.002+08:00

Alright, I don't want to make this blog dead 'cos I don't want that to happen. Been busy with work and there are tons of stuff that I need to think about.

There are also a bunch of things that I want to do. Just recently, I want to keep learning music. Be better at my guitar skills and also playing the keyboard. Been reading notes and scores recently. I even requested a music room at school so I could teach kids music!

And I'm thinking, maybe I'll study again and if possible, take up a course on Music and Drama for Primary Schools. Hopefully they have that.

I still want to be an Art Teacher. But I was adviced not to. I could see being an English teacher wouldn't do me any good. ('Cos I, myself, not that great in English).

So~ to sum all up, I'm still a busy-busy person.

And oh. My right wrist have been hurting for almost a week now. My wrist is like 'Oh, let's make myself painful for now!' and it did.

It feels a little better though, but I have the hardest time getting dressed or picking things up.

2009-05-01T18:15:00.002+08:00

Well, my little sister's single is already out last month and I heard a lot of people liked it. I'm so proud of Qilah... or Qeez, whatever. So I put up her song at imeem and put it up here so you guys could have a listen. Hehe.

Been a busy bee. Been a workaholic recently and I barely have time to do things that I want (well, I spent my free time checking FB. >x< The hell).

Anyways, I wanna draw and make music again. Can't wait for that keyboard I'm eye-ing since a few weeks ago. I wanna try practicing my keyboarding/piano skills.

And Adi's b'day is this 25th (and Nad, I remember your b'day too 'cos you're my unicorn) and I hope he's well enough so I could celebrate his b'day in the hospital or something. I wanna buy him his b'day gifts. Just don't have the time to shop around to buy gifts. TT.TT

I feel that I've capsized.

Your Deep Sleep

2009-04-10T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hey. Sorry for not updating this blog for so long. Things have been really busy here. I rarely have rests. as well as having time for myself. Don't worry, I still have the time to take care of myself like... eating and breathing.

I'm just too busy to make people happy. Like what Adi did before the accident. So, I'm doing this for him. If you're wondering, he's doing fine. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Too much to tell what's going on.

After all this, I'm thinking what will happen next. And it makes me wonder, have I been a good person? Before and after the accident? Truth to say, I feel like I've lost a lot of things.

I lost Hisyam. I almost lost Adi (Syukur Alhamdulillah that I didn't). I don't want to lose anything and anyone else. It's too painful.

So, is this pain?

2009-03-22T10:53:00.001+08:00

It's hard. Very hard.. I just wish I have someone to support me.. I just can't keep being strong like this...

2009-03-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

I feel so lonely.

2009-03-09T11:50:00.000+08:00

It has been a week and I stared blankly on this blog. Thinking what to type and what to say. Since that day, things have been going down hill. It was hard and I admit, I felt lonely without him. I'm sure no one knows how it feels like but I'm telling you, it's difficult.

He is progressing though. His lungs and ribs were fractured and he has internal bleeding in the brain when on the first day. Three days later, his lungs and ribs are healing quite quickly. On the 5th day, they decided not to put him in sedation. He was in a lot of pain. He was sweating so much even in a cold room. But I get to see his eyes and he got to move a lot. Pain is gain, they said. And with this, he is half-awake. They tied his up, to prevent him from pulling the wires off him. I wish I could help him.

I came to visit him everyday and I get to see his condition. I have to say that he's doing well. I think in another few more days, he'll probably start talking and smiling. The things that I miss about him.

All I could do now is to visit him everyday, wait hours before visiting hours and I'll be beside him, stroking his hair and forehead, cleaning him up, sing him songs, talk to him and wiping his tears away... anything that I could do ease his pain.

In my relationship with Adi, we believe the word 'Love' is extremely strong and we, ourselves, thought that it's not the right time to say it to each other just yet... this has been gone for 4 years. But with this situation and the things I do for him, I hope he'll be able to see what my love has got to offer...

Get well soon, ayg. We; your friends, family, students and myself, will keep praying for you and we pray that you will be able to stand up again, give us jokes and laughter, comfort and love, wisdom and strength...

2009-03-02T02:12:00.001+08:00

Adi, my beloved boyfriend, had an accident close by my house. He is now hospitalize. Critical condition, severe head injuries. He's now in a coma and in an ICU. Please pray for his safety...

I'm afraid to sleep now, I just hanged out with him the whole day... *cries* I pray that he's going to be ok...

As Promised...

2009-02-18T09:57:00.001+08:00

I'm suppose to upload the photos here so, why not I just do it now?

Group photo, from left to right: Combat, myself, Riku, DK and Afif

I SO wanna put up more but fear I need permission from the photographers. Special thanks to revivephotography and RedChokolate. We love to work for you guys again. :3

And, oh, I uploaded two new songs. Please keep in mind that the song is not edited and is not a multi-track. These songs are recorded directly and live. So, be gentle. :3 Hope you guys like it.

The Gist of What's Going On...

2009-02-17T08:18:00.003+08:00

Well, a few days ago (maybe a week?), things have been really tough, stressful and devastating... and for that, I turned it all around. I wouldn't want this kind of attitude to pull me down even further...

So I've been working out...

No, seriously, I work out...

I may not be an athletic person (although, I was when I was a kid) but I just need to do something positive and healthy.

And so, I went jogging almost everyday now. I try my best to eat properly. I ate supplements. I joined Yasakoi, the Soran Bushi. It's a Japanese dance which requires tons of stamina, strength and balance.

I felt that we did much more than this. But basically this is what I have been doing for quite a while.

And I'm addicted to it. I can't sit at home. I just have to get out from my house and do some jogging or do some yasakoi alone. I felt that it's best I just shed some sweat. I hate it back then but now I think I'm liking it. XD

Anyways, aside from exercising and yasakoi-ng. I've recently did a few covers of other bands and a few singles from my band. It went successfully and Yazin (my boss) was satisfied. I will post up the songs on imeem once I get the CD is with me. I hope you all will like it. Here's what we recorded:

1) Breathe Today (Cover) from Flyleaf
2) Crushcrushcrush (Cover) from Paramore
3) Let it Go by Daily Dose
4) Memory of You by Daily Dose
5) Moth to a Flame by Daily Dose

I swore we might have recorded 'Papa Don't Preach' but I'm unsure about that...

And as promise, I'll post up the 'stock'ing photos later once I'm home. (It's in my pendrive and it's at home. >x<)

Later~

'Leave Out All the Rest'

2009-02-11T08:08:00.003+08:00

'I've never been perfect, but neither have you'
- 'LOATR', Linkin Park

This line have been repeating itself over and over again since this morning. I want to make it stop. Sigh.

Things haven't been great. It's hard. I wish I'm a better person.

p/s:

Model pictures will be up soon. Thanks to revive and RedChokolate.

The Very-Late January Update

2009-01-31T18:40:00.004+08:00

Hey. It has been a while. Happy 2009! And Happy Chinese New Year!

Working is a bitch. Still coping but things get better. Sick now but feeling better too. Syukur.

Uh, I wrote so much just now but my laptop crashed so I have to rewrite this whole damn thing.

Too lazy for that...

Anyhoot, I promised Teah that I would post something up for her. It's kinda awesome. :3

This is Taffy Tami. She has a special gift.

Flip her skirt and she has no legs! But there's more!

She's now... uh... upskirted!

This is her yellow topping hat

Tada!! Taffy is now a cupcake!

I used to have this exact same doll when I was 6. I lost it when we were moving out. It has been 17 years. Not a while back, Faiz told me that he found it selling at Giant. I was psyche and bought the doll immediately (well, a few days after). I was happy. I have that childhood feeling again. It was nice. And this doll have that same smell like before too. It's sweet. Still the same. Ah... memories. XD

This doll have been my childhood friend. And I've found her.

Anyway, will update if something interesting going on. Trip to Singaland story will be up soon too. :3 Hope that I have the time for that. But I'll trying my very best, people!

<3 yous~
Vie/Fae/Riot

First Timer

2008-12-24T10:10:00.002+08:00

Like Adi told me last night, today there's going to be a lot of 'first times' for me... He mentioned:

- First time flying (YES! I'M VERY NERVOUS!! I'm not afraid of heights though...)
- First time abroad other than Malaysia (Yay!)
- First time away from family (yes, oh so true..)
- First time going with his parents (Yikes!)
- First time to go there...

Well, there will be a bunch of first times for me there. So I'm both excited and nervous. LOL. I just hope that I have a good time there. I need to buy a bunch of souvenirs too. Hehe.

Anyhoot, next time I'll post up some pictures after my 3days travel. I even got an notebook to write down stuff. So, I hope I reach there safely and having a good time.

Wish Kaza and myself some good luck.

Love,
Fae/Vie

The Updates or December '08

2008-12-20T09:00:00.006+08:00

The Reading Updates:

Currently I'm reading Teah's books 'cos I feel that I should really catch up with literature. And, Teah, THANK YOU!!! I fell in love with John Green instantly! I love reading 'Looking for Alaska' (although, the ending was kinda... uh... plain? No offense, it's still a good book). Reading that book makes me laugh and cry (literally! I cried!!). Now I'm looking forward to reading 'An Abundance of Katherines'. I already love the storyline. Hope I could finish them up. XD

The Activity Update:

Well, other than reading John Green books (I'm SO getting Paper Towns when I'm away), current events with BJFA-UBD is still on. The upcoming event is the coolest and it will keep me busy since I started working but I won't stop attending and helping out with this event. It's Japanese Pop Culture Week, which held in March. The cool part is that I (with some other members) am in-charge with the Cosplay booth (cosplay; costume + play = cosplay, to dress and play the role of a character from anime, books, manga, games, etc). There are several categories of cosplay in this event:

- Maid
- Anime
- High School
- Ninja, as Naruto...
- Modern Fashion
- Kendo Girls from Bamboo Blade (hence Anime)
- Akihabara (Japanese geeks. My president came up with this. XS)

I'm dressing as four of the following categories; Maid, Anime/High School (I'm combining as both), Anime, Modern Fashion.

Maid
I'm gonna buy that myself (because too many ruffles, too fussy to make for a beginner like myself). Maybe dressing as Gothic Lolita Maid.

Anime/High School
My friend and I (June) became partners for this cosplay. We're dressing up as our own character from the game 'Kingdom Hearts 2' in High School form. I'm gonna make the skirt myself but I can look for the shirt elsewhere (since it's the end of the year, it's easier to find. XD)

Anime
I'm dressing up as my own design of Red Riding Hood. But I changed the name to 'Red Riot Hood'. This shows designs that I have came up with which is also partly cosplay (because I create the designs and sew them myself)

'Red Riot Hood'

I have made the hood with June 2 years ago, so I'm gonna use that. All I need to find is the right fabric and color and also those boots (so comfy that I thought they're sneakers. XD)

Modern Fashion
Also known as Harajuku. This is, by far, the easiest that I can get. It's all about 'Mix 'n' Match' in your closet. XD

So, I'm starting to learn how to sew clothes. I have taken a lot of tutorials and researched for a while now. So... all I need is my salary (which is not out yet since I started working... >A<)

The Random Update:

A certain someone was so kind to me that he bought me: LINKIN PARK'S ROAD TO REVOLUTION CD/DVD!!! I was so hyped up! He even got me a poster of the guys. I'm so HAPPY! (And still a dork).

The usual gist of me taking pictures with LP's CD. XD

LOL! Being my dorky lover self. XD

Oh, I found out where I'm going soon this 24th til 26th... I'm off to Singapore. YAY!! I've never been there and never flew anywhere. So it's going to be my first time. Hehe.

Laters,
Vie/Fae

Taught by a Pro

2008-12-08T17:43:00.003+08:00

Today we had a function at my place so most of my family members were here. We even invited P2F contestants and they did a WHOLE lot of karaoke-ing (what they do best, XP). I invited Milin and so he brought Puan Lili (she's a judge from the show and also a singing coach). I was told to sing and in the end, we practiced singing.

My flaws? Well, I just need to open my mouth a bit more and try to make some songs as dict-able as possible. So, I feel like I should research on how to sing properly and asked Milin to coach me. XP

Now that I realized my flaws, I'm not sure if I should send my CD to RTB for audition. XwX

And am I really a good singer or not?

Nyah~

Just for Laughs

2008-12-04T00:07:00.003+08:00

Tell me this is funny 'cos I laughed every time I see this:

Credit to: http://hedgehogbeeblebrox.deviantart.com/

I imagined 'Sweeney Frog' in his Kermit the Frog voice. LOL.

It is claimed that this is the artist's mom's idea. Great job Mrs.hedgehogbeeblebrox. :)

... Immarturity

2008-11-11T11:52:00.002+08:00

It has been 2 weeks that things didn't go well here and because of that, I'm too absorbent to myself and the things that happened to me. Hence, me forgetting the world.

And for that, I'm EXTREMELY sorry for my ignorance if it starts bleeding through. Now, I want to try and forget about myself and focus on others.

I'll try my best.

I'm a meanie sometimes...

2008-11-08T10:02:00.003+08:00

I know Halloween have passed but at least it's better late than never. I made a promise to myself that I would do something to my nephew; Zamri, during Halloween which I planned for few months. Hehe.

'Harry Putar' XP
He's wearing my working jacket. I planned to let him wear my usual black jacket with hoodie but Qilah accidentally brought it with her to RTB. *curses* I drew the scar on his forehead. It's face paint.

Riding the 'supposedly' Hippogriff (did I spell that right, T?)
That scarf was my first time knitting, very badly proportioned and Faiz placed it wrongly. Harry Putar was hyped up and I couldn't get a proper photo of him.

'Expecto Petronum!!'
He was waving his wand (the one I made 'cos I was bored at home one day) viciously and yelling. I snap a photo that I wished it went well but instead, it was shaky. At least you got to see his priceless expression.

I didn't get to go jamming and dress up for Halloween 'cos I didn't have the time to create my costume. I hope next year I would. Hope you guys enjoy this.

Next victim: Sae'ed (Ian) as Santa Little Helpers. (evil grin)

The Official Teacher

2008-11-04T09:13:00.005+08:00

Graduation was over. Instead of being a 'UBD-ian', I'm now a 'teacher'. It feels good to know that. Extremely good.

Graduation went well that day. I began working in school early in the morning and went off to UBD at 10+. Preparing things and went off graduating. In my head, during the time, was 'This is it." Looking at my friends whom I met in UBD, I realized how much things have changed in 3 years. And then I felt it; 'I'm going to miss UBD.' Not 'cos of anything, though, I just missed the fact of me studying behind the student's desks, listening to lectures and craving for coffee when we were sleepy in class and rushed our assignments. It was fun. It was a whole LOT of fun with the friends you've made.

Now I'm sitting on my staff table, thinking of what the children should learn and the responsiblities I'm holding as a teacher. Standing up infront of little kids and making sure that they're listening. It's a huge thing, frightening but... it makes you feel that you're all grown up.

I planned to take degree very soon but need to confirm this with someone to make sure I've made the right choices in life.

Here's some photos~ XD

My Diploma friends that I hang out with most of the time; Fen, Ak. Khairul Amilin, Han and myself. (Yes, I hang with myself. XP)

Psyche in getting the diploma! Lame. XP And I was wearing contacts.

I couldn't find my parents at the beginning of the ceremony. But it went well and my dad picked out the flowers for me.

June willing to come for OUR graduation even though she had hers that morning. Felix is next to me.

Well, now it's something new to begin. I hope this road won't be bumpy as it is at the beginning.

Take cares,
Fae/Vie

Graduation

2008-10-29T23:06:00.005+08:00

I know it's very late. I just felt like it's best for me to type things down now. I've been extremely busy recently. Got a whole lot of things to do at work and in life. Work is a bitch sometimes but I guess I need to adjust to that. Life have been tough and tiring but there will be something really big going to happen to me.

A few years ago, I guess when I was a pre-teen, I've made a promise to my mom that I will get into the University and graduate so that I could have a steady job and help my family. Tomorrow afternoon, I'll fulfill my promise. I want to see my parents watching me on stage of the Chancellor Hall and smile for my achievement. It may not be a degree or a masters but, what matters to me is that I kept my promise and I'll be the first child of my parents to be able to graduate. I hope that I've made them proud.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day, so I hope I won't fall off the staircase or something during the graduation...

And I'm fucking exhausted 'cos the school won't allow us to have rest.

Wish me luck!

Hearts: Fae/Vie

EDIT (10:17AM/ 30.10):

I had trouble sleeping last night. I kept waking up late/early at night. But at around 4AM was the one I want to talk about. I woke up with an extreme pain in my right ear, like a muscle that keeps acting up... but in your ear? I went out and checked in the bathroom and I felt something crawling inside of my ear. I knew, something is inside. I poured water until my ear is blocked and kept jumping while leaning my head to my right, making sure the water comes out. But it was painful 'cos that thing is now struggling inside. I ran to my room, grab my towel and covering my right ear while doing the same jumping thing. In a while, I looked the towel I was holding and found out that my ear had been invaded my a tiny black beetle. I freaked out of course! I was pissed off that this insect have interrupted my sleep. The sleep that I need to get ready for today; Graduation. I threw the insect into the toilet bowl and flushed it while cussing in deep breath.

I went to sleep covering my ears after that... I hope that won't happen again...

Have I been hacked?

2008-10-23T08:46:00.002+08:00

Alright, I was trying to get into MSN today and I found out that I couldn't, which is weird because I typed in my password and my email address correctly. I re-typed them over and over but still couldn't sign in. It made me wonder.

As I checked around my blog, Teah's blog says that I'm living in London and working with the NGO. For those who doesn't know me very well; I DON'T work for the NGO. I've NEVER been to London. My purse is RIGHT HERE with me. And if this happens to me, it is NOT my nature to ask for money from my friends via email or face-to-face. That's just not me.

I texted Teah about this and it turns out to be a serious case. I couldn't even change my password!

Man, I'm having a tough week.

A Some-what Short Rant #1

2008-10-11T20:42:00.004+08:00

I hate it if my love ones starting to argue with each other. I hate it when I got to be stuck in the middle and have to decide which side to be on. I hate thinking that they won't get along or don't give a f*** about how I would feel if anything happens to either of them when sh** like this happens. Please, STOP IT!! It's pressuring and it's slowly killing me. If you guys love me (like or whatever), do me a favor and SHUT THE F*** UP with your ego and for once, consider my feelings. I don't want to lose anyone. You have no idea how painful it will get for me when I lose someone I care the most. Just please, at least, try to get along. I get this kind of stuff a lot at home, family members included. There are a lot of shouting, screaming, beating and abusing. It's haunting me and knowing the fact that it's going to happen to the people I love, It'll break me.

I love you guys so much. Please, think twice before you react and think about others too.

p/s: I'm working on the 14th and today's already sh***ing me to enjoy my last 2 days of freedom. I wish I could enjoy them but seems like I couldn't 'cos what had happened to me recently.

End of Rant

I fear of...

2008-10-01T12:11:00.004+08:00

Howcast: 'How to Take Care of Yourself When You're Sick

Useful and entertaining stuff.

I have been sick for 4 days straight. I couldn't sleep properly for those whole nights 'cos I kept feeling cold and hot, with and without blanket. Just when I finally fall asleep, this dude was calling up looking for someone and I told him that he got the wrong number (I was speaking with a painful throat) and this dude wants to 'berkenalan', kept asking if we could meet. I looked at the time and it was almost 1AM and I thought 'What the f***?' So I asked him if he could speak in English and he said yes. I told him, slowly and clearly that I am not feeling well and I hadn't slept for days but he kept on blabbing mindless things (I don't even understand what he's saying) and kept laughing dorkishly... NOT the sexy one. I told him goodnight and I slept after that.

It has been 4 days that I felf that my nose is blocked (but I could still breathe through them) and my throat hurts whenever I swallow (which affect my nose). Everynight I have migraines before I sleep and have that temperature thing going on.

Oh Doctor,Doctor, what's going on with me?

Adi came to visit me, it's been days that he's been doing that. I found this very sweet. And we're going to visit the clinic to check what the hell is wrong with me.

p/s: A friend of mine says that I'm fragile, always end up being sick. Is this true?

Leave Out All the Rest

2008-09-24T23:30:00.005+08:00

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
help me leave behind some reasons to be missed.
Don't resent me when you're feeling empty,
keep me in your memory.
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest.

-Linkin Park's 'Leave Out All the Rest'

I love this song so much that I'm never tire of hearing them. =3

Anyhoots, I'm just missing someone really badly even though I just met him this afternoon and hang out. I just found out that he won't be coming over as much. I'm so lonely. I need a hug. Hehe.

Well, got my exhibition earlier and I didn't do the arrangement as well as last time but overall, it's not that bad. I gave Miss Kono her gift and she really liked the color ('cos I know she loves earthly colors). Went to Charcoal (instead of Misato) for sungkai with Bobby, Herry, KC and Kaza. Hang there for a while and being friendly with the workers there.

I wished I could spent more time with that person... sigh. I'm gonna miss you!!

Laters,
Fae/Vie

Lacey is Back!!

2008-09-17T03:11:00.003+08:00

I finally got Lacey back. She's looking all confuse as her memory has been erased. LOL. I made that sound so weird. I named my laptop Lacey 'cos I was bored, she (yes, she) was reformatted 'cos I believe it's time for her to do so since she kept on shutting down whenever it's heated.

So I'm going to put things back in, install what I need and try to take care of her properly. I've been using Delilah for sometime now and got used to her too. (Delilah is Adi's lappy)

And today (later during the day time), Adi and I are going out for a date. Not those usual important date that we usually had, this time, we're just gonna relax and enjoy our time together. That's a good date, right? Planned to cut my hair and trying out some new style. I'm excited!

Although, I haven't got him anything for the big day yet. I hope that certain 'gift' will be up soon.

Will update later~

Welcome back, Me.

2008-09-15T17:35:00.002+08:00

It's weird. I woke up this morning and go, 'Urrrrgggghhhhh, I wish I could sleep more but this damn temperature is killing me.' It's a hot day and I lie there on my bed, all sweaty. Maybe it's that weird dream that I had but couldn't remember.

I got up, showered, replied my student's text about puasa. Haha. I chatted with a 9-year old. It's funny that I'm all grown now. Adult.

I went online, looking at the usual things; Deviantart, mails, YouTube, etc. It slowly brings me to Linkin Park. Laughing and enjoying the pictures the fan made. Creative and great. I looked at their videos and laughed as the guys fooling around. It occured to me that I took out Meteora and played it on the laptop (Delilah) and listening to them while browsing about Linkin Park.

As I listened to one of my favourite songs; 'Breaking the Habit', my heart pumped really hard, beating among my chest, I smiled. A sudden rush in me; my dedication, the motivation I use to have. That certain feeling I lost. I whispered, 'Welcome back.'

My hands are still shaky with this feeling. Being hyper, smilling all the time, and that creativity started to build in (and also my stomach grumbling). So I guess, I'm going to draw a whole lot of things tonight. Haha. I'm glad that I'm back. And I felt good, extremely good.

I guess eventhough I'm 23, I'm still a dork.

Lots of Love and rockin'
Fae/Vie.

Self-Discovery

2008-09-13T02:04:00.005+08:00

It's Ramadhan. A month in which you have to be patient through hunger, anger and any other things that had or will happen to you. Well, earlier today, God decided to test me out.

It was a hectic day; Ikebana, being a make-up artist, going through meetings. One of my family members provoked me today, saying mean things behind my back. After hearing all these things from my siblings, I was keeping all the anger inside but slipped out a few nasty words about this said family member. My elder brother was there with his wife and cute little Fian. Abg.Fir saw me being furious and immediately stroke my back and started 'nooging' my head jokingly. Instead of me firing things about this back-stabber, I was, instead, having fun for what he did to me and in the end we wrestled.

The wrestling thing was only for a few minutes, we stopped for a while to rest. But my fury was still in me after hearing the betrayal. Abg.Fir came to the rescue again by giving me his open arms with that smile on his face. I admit that I couldn't resist and hugged him back.

It felt good. It felt extremely good! I just found out that a hug could make me feel so calm from all the things that had happened. And from there, I realized how much I love my brothers more than I am to my sisters. I have always looked up to Abg.Fir as my role model.

I sometimes wish that I could have a great, role-modeled elder sister to look up to instead so she could understand my feminity. But I'm truly blessed for having such great brothers.

Ah, the bliss of brotherly love.

So, the self-discovery:
'If I rant, hug me'

Hehe. Seriously, I feel way better after that.

Loves, Fae/Vie

Sesame Street

2008-09-10T13:12:00.002+08:00

I was looking for some videos to kill my time while knitting when I bumped into Sesame Street. I was hooked watching them 'cos I have to admit, Sesame Street never bores me... except the parodies and lame edits made by other people. I laughed watching Sesame Street: Kermit News And Goody Basket.

CookieMonster looked cute with thet blonde wig and red hood.

Well, I have to continue knitting now. My cousin is leaving today and I planned to give him a scarf before he goes.

Later.

Delilah, I miss Lacey...

2008-09-07T13:28:00.006+08:00

Using someone else's computer is kinda alittle complicated. First thing is, it's not mine. Second, it's a Vista. I'm not used with Vista yet... and lastly, there's no Adobe Photoshop!! I'm starting to feel like drawing again. Been neglecting my talent for sometime that I fear I might lose that talent.

Yes, I blame my new passion on knitting. But it's fun to knit~

Oh! By the way, Teah, you're Hufflepuff scarf is on hold as I'm making scarves for my cousins who're leaving to UK very soon. Don't worry, as soon as I finish theirs, I'll continue on yours...

What's up soon:
19.09.08: 4th Anniversary
- I haven't thought of anything yet for this day...

Hearts, Fae/Vie

The Major Rimba Black-Out

2008-09-01T20:50:00.003+08:00

In the dark with my candle

Rimba is facing a major black out... again. This is the 2nd time that it happened this year. The first time happened last week on Wednesday at 10PM and it power's back on at 2AM. Now it happened again.

How I got online, you asked? I'm using Go!broadband right now and my laptop's using its batteries. So, now I'm just facing my brightly lit laptop with my candle on the side. Haven't eaten dinner yet.

Hearts, Fae/Vie

What is Life?

2008-08-29T12:00:00.005+08:00

No one could define the term 'Life'. It's hard to understand life and understand why we're facing so many things. I mean, I could just wikipedia-ed it but I never thought that there's a right definition of life. We're all facing hard times and it's up to us on how to handle it.

Sorry for the rant, though. I just woke up this morning, received a text message and thought 'What is life?'. Since then, I just wondered how we're handling life and how we're trying to enjoy it despite the hard things we're facing. I have loads of problems, yes, but I tried my best not to think of it that much and enjoy what I have.

Anyways, I got a job interview this Saturday morning from the Ministry of Education. I'm nervous as heck. 'Cos KaZa says that it's like the UBD interview but harder. They even provide 3 different tests for it; written test, reading test and oral test. Obviously, since I'm going to be a teacher, they'll ask me teaching related questions. The hardest part is that I have to be smart but don't be a smart-ass. Haha. No, in fact, the hardest part is knowing their names.

Well, going to eat lunch now and revise all my Managing Classroom Behaviour, Issues and Trends and Inclusive Education.

Oh, and my room project? I'm still in progress with that. So much things to do and I was scolded by KaZa last night for piling up work and not doing them. Haha. What can I say? Sometimes I just like to laze around. Lazy Fae~

Hearts, Fae

P/S:

'I'm a trip masta, fool!' - Najib (he's so awesome like that)

Kiss Me

2008-08-21T14:02:00.003+08:00

Here's another lipdub by Teah, Nad and myself. Heard we made it through the LipDub Stars Channel. I still can't believe it!

Lip dub: Kiss Me from Teah on Vimeo.

By the way, the project for my room is 95% done. It was completed last Sunday at 5am. Hehe. I will put on some pictures but not until I complete the whole project. I just need to put up some things and then I'm done. Hehe. Sorry for the long wait.

I miss my bear...

Laters~

Project - Day III

2008-08-14T12:08:00.005+08:00

Day III of Project

Sleeping at 5 and waking up at around 9 can be a pain. You're head feels numb and your eyes felt swollen. Not a pleasant thing. But lying down on your bed, not asleep, shutting your eyes and you're mind wanders can actually help. I'm fully awake.

Took my shower, and started cleaning up my room again. Nothing much, I was just placing things here and there. I think I'm going to be busy cleaning up later at the evening since I'm working later with Adi.

Plan of today's clean-up? Taking out clothes that I may not use as much or no longer needed. And if I still have the time, I should be cleaning up at my make up cabinet...

I need more boxes...

Here's some update picture of my room:

My even 'messier' room

After 7 hours of cleaning up:

It's cleaner now!! And where do I put most of my stuff? ...

In a box... apparently, I can't dispose my few years worth of artwork. I just couldn't! So I decided to put them aside first and plan to get a cupboard or something to store them. Hehe.

Edit: 2210

I went to the Mall earlier and left at 6+ with Adi to survey some things for my room and buy my mom's gifts 'cos today is her birthday. Couldn't believe that she's 49. I was extremely shocked 'cos she doesn't look 49, more like 5 years younger...

Anyways, after I went home, my brother; Faiz (a.k.a Combat), told me that two Star Troopers and Darth Vader invaded the Mall!! I was freaked and hyped up at the same time! Abang Fir got to see them and took photos with the Star Troopers!! I was jealous and hyped!! I wanna see them!! Hehe. Maybe tomorrow and hope I have the chance to take pictures with them.

Now that I'm home, planned to clean up my wardrobe. Update soon.

Project - Day II

2008-08-13T19:48:00.005+08:00

Day II of Project

Yesterday was the first day I started my bedroom project. I have emptied my cabinets and it taken about 3 boxes... and that was just the cabinet. I haven't even started the rest yet. I would've finished cleaning up the things that are unneeded in this room but due to circumstances, I couldn't.

Now it's Day 2. I'm removing the boxes that I have in my room and put it elsewhere. If I have enough time, I'll put away some of my unwanted clothes and no longer wear. And if I still have the time, I'll redecorate my room. I can't help it, sometimes I couldn't sleep at night, I might as well do it, right?

Here's some photos of my dirty-dirty room;

Update more soon, laters.

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It's very late... and I just finally finished cleaning up my room . I started cleaning since 8 0r 9 PM and I finished it since 4:30+AM. It gotten even dirtier after the previous pictures. I'll upload it later if I have the time.

Basically, I finished emptying my cabinet and the top shelves. I carried more than 5 heavy boxes by myself. It was fun... Now I'm extremely tired-bummed, so I need to head off and sleep. I have to wake up early tomorrow to continue cleaning and work at the Mall with Adi.

Nite2, Love,
Fae

p/s: I'm very hungry right now. Didn't eat dinner 'cos I was too busy cleaning up...

Obsession of Cleaning...?

2008-08-12T12:08:00.002+08:00

You know... I think I realize that I may have the obsession of cleaning. Especially for my small size room. It's messy now but when I started to clean up, I'd like things untouched (well, except myself 'cos it's my room after all). Sometimes I feel like Monica Geller from FRIENDS.

I hate to see things disorganized or they're not on their places but because of laziness... my room became messy. So I made up a little project of my own; I'm going to make a small makeover in my room. Why small? Well, I don't want it to be so overly changed 'cos I like to see small changes. Hehe. Today, I'm going to throw/keep things from my room and if I have enough time, I'll redecorate. Maybe I'm going to take some photos of befores and afters. Hehe.

Alright! Wish me luck!

Laters~

The Night Owl

2008-08-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

I was called a night owl by someone... I wouldn't say that I'm proud of that or I'm offended either. I like owls. I think they're cute.

Any*hoots* (get it? hoot? [dork]) I've made my banner!! Yay~ I'm so happy with it. I hope I would be able to make this blog purdier...

'Kiss me' couldn't load up for some reason. Why is that?

Loves,
Fae/Vie

p/s: OMG! THERE'S A BEETLE CRAWLING BEHIND ME AND IT TICKLES IN THE WRONG WAYS!!!

The Messy Room

2008-08-08T00:46:00.002+08:00

I rant about my room a lot. I just couldn't help the fact that it's messy. Whenever I cleaned it up, it'll end up being messy again within minutes... I don't know how.

I just got back from Teah's and it was a lot of fun. Like usual, we'll dork around. Nad did most of the crazy stuff tonight but I had fun and was entertained. Sharky did his first appearance tonight. LOL.

I love these girls. I'm gonna miss you!!

<3's: Fae/Vie

Ouchies...

2008-08-07T14:42:00.006+08:00

I have tried to get online for a few days now but the internet connection is being a bozo. Now that I finally got to hop in, I'll type what had happen.

Today... I burnt my left hand ring finger by the straightener iron... it huuwwwtssss... TT.TT

Neways, I met up with my producers last night and we had a deal in making a single. Yay! They're extremely nice guys and we're very excited about it. But the guys and I are planning to write a new song for the record and we're doing it with teamwork. So very excited!!

<3's,>
Fae/Vie

p/s: I happen to have trouble finding a good band name. Apparently, Daily Dose have been given funny comebacks such as 'dildoes', 'Daily Cows' etc. And plus, the guys in my band don't really appreciate the names. Hence, we only came out with 'Two Decomposing Zombified Swimming Dead Birds on a Windshield but That's Alright'. If you don't get it, it's suppose to be a joke. I went to Band Name Maker and they came up with weird band names that does not help as much. So, if you like to share your ideas, I'd be glad to have them too. So, the band is not about Emo and shit. It's more of a band that makes people stand on their feet. Instead of being hopeless. PLEASE HELP GIVE ME SOME IDEAS ON THE BAND NAME!! Thanks.

Spice Girls Lipdub - Wannabe

2008-08-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

I went out with Teah and Nad as we're recording some of Teah's projects. We were recording for the lipdubbing and were done for the day 'til Teah started recording us in the car with her Mac. We were lipdubbing Wannabe by the Spice Girls. It was funny! I had the greatest time with them.

Lip dub: Spice Girls-Wannabe from Teah on Vimeo.

We are dorks. Fo'shizzle! I love these girls. *huggles*

Love,
Fae/Vie

p/s: Teah said that I'm a star in this video. LOL

Going out!

2008-08-03T10:22:00.001+08:00

I've been staring and looking at things on my laptop for almost 20 minutes now and i'm suppose to get ready soon to go out with Adi. Yay! Hehe. I'm planning to buy my own b'day things. It's not lame to do so. lol.

So I think I should get ready now. Laters!

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I just got back. We went out from 11 and I drove his Lancer. We went off to watch a movie 'The Mummy 3'. But we were a few minutes late so we decided to watch the movie at around 1.30. So, we decided to play at the arcade and we played that Safari thing and got addicted. The first round, we died at the 2nd level of that game, we got about 84% and it says 'You need to express your feelings'. Hehe. We played the 2nd time and we went all the way through the 3rd level but unfortunately, we couldn't finish it. We got 56% and it says 'Classmates, you're planning for a dinner, right?' LOL We lost about 30% on the second time playing and it costs us $20 of playing.

We ate at Jolibee and watch movie. I have to say, the first and second movie is way better then the last movie. Hehe. But I enjoyed the movie. We walked around some more after that, trying to but my own b'day gifts. I bought myself a new fan for my laptop (it's my fourth time already) and buy some lip therapy...

*Exited for a few hours*

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I'm back! I went to Giant with my sister and bought some more products. I guess that's why girls buy a lot of time buying things (I think there's a pun there.)

Well, I'm kinda beat and my room's a friggin' mess. I'm off.

Pic of me and Adi during our day out:

Love,
Fae

Sleepy~

2008-08-02T10:30:00.000+08:00

My mum woke me up concerning my 2 year-old nephew who's taken his medicine and the laundry downstairs when it rains. The weather is cool right now as if it's about to rain. I'm gonna get soaked! (Me doing a happy dance)
I'm pretty excited about later and hope it won't get canceled though, me and the band's going to jam later and going to show Yazin (he's out record dealer, who happens to be my cousin >.<). The songs that we might play tonight:
1) Radio Song by Sugarbus
2) Far Away by Nickleback
3) Papa Don't Preach by Kelly Osbourne
4) Breathe Today by Flyleaf
5) Fully Alive by Flyleaf
6) F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X by The Fall of Troy
7) Open Your Eyes by Your Favourite Enemies

Well, these are the songs that we're going to try out. To me, 'Radio Song' is the hardest 'cos it's in French. I might know how French accent sounds like but I haven't practice them yet. This song takes up alot of energy. Meh~ -_-' Later about tonight, Yazin wants to talk to us about something. I hope it's good news, though.

Well, I'll update some more when I'm done with it.

Laters~

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I went to Ken's place at around 3:30, and we practiced some songs that needed to be perfected. We tried 'Open Your Eyes' by Your Favorite Enemies and it was hard for Mat to sing (Mint and Qilah were goofing around that Mat's face has 'million of faces' when he sings and we told him that singing shouldn't be too forceful).

We went home after that to get ready (I need to wash my hair) and so Mat, Mint, and I were late (I blame myself for it 'cos there's a hole in my shirt and was thinking of covering it up). We were about 5 minutes til the jamming session and as we went at Misha's, we were asked to wait for another 30 minutes. And so we did. We met up with Yazin and asked him to tell us the news that he's going to tell us. After the talk, turns out that we're going to make our own singles now! I was extremely happy.

The guys and I were thinking which songs that we're going to make as a single.

Ken, Andie and I (Mat was off to work) decided that we would make a new song together to represent who we are to the public. Song title is unsure, but we're going to have a band meeting and write our songs before Wednesday (we're going to meet up with our producer).

I'm so excited that I can't sleep!! Hehe

I have some piccies but oh-how I wish I have photoshop to manipulate a little. Make it lawa lagi. Haha.

I'm off to bed now. I'm actually feeling a little drained from all the jumping and screaming.

Nite2

Love, Fae

The Welcoming

2008-08-02T02:39:00.001+08:00

Hey,

My name's Faeza but I'd preferred being called 'Fae'. My close friends call me Eza or Vi. I just turned 23 a few days ago. So ... Happy 'belated' Birthday to me! Hehe. I don't go online often but whenever I have the chance, I'd try my best to update.

It's late but I couldn't sleep 'cos last night, I was kept awake because someone needed my help. As a person, I'd stayed up all night for him. Hehe. I ended up waking uber-ly late. Oh wells~~

Anyhoots, I'll update later if I could get online later or something.

Loves,
Fae/Vi