Sunday, March 22, 2009

It's hard. Very hard.. I just wish I have someone to support me.. I just can't keep being strong like this...

Sunday, March 15, 2009

I feel so lonely.

Monday, March 9, 2009

It has been a week and I stared blankly on this blog. Thinking what to type and what to say. Since that day, things have been going down hill. It was hard and I admit, I felt lonely without him. I'm sure no one knows how it feels like but I'm telling you, it's difficult.

He is progressing though. His lungs and ribs were fractured and he has internal bleeding in the brain when on the first day. Three days later, his lungs and ribs are healing quite quickly. On the 5th day, they decided not to put him in sedation. He was in a lot of pain. He was sweating so much even in a cold room. But I get to see his eyes and he got to move a lot. Pain is gain, they said. And with this, he is half-awake. They tied his up, to prevent him from pulling the wires off him. I wish I could help him.

I came to visit him everyday and I get to see his condition. I have to say that he's doing well. I think in another few more days, he'll probably start talking and smiling. The things that I miss about him.

All I could do now is to visit him everyday, wait hours before visiting hours and I'll be beside him, stroking his hair and forehead, cleaning him up, sing him songs, talk to him and wiping his tears away... anything that I could do ease his pain.

In my relationship with Adi, we believe the word 'Love' is extremely strong and we, ourselves, thought that it's not the right time to say it to each other just yet... this has been gone for 4 years. But with this situation and the things I do for him, I hope he'll be able to see what my love has got to offer...

Get well soon, ayg. We; your friends, family, students and myself, will keep praying for you and we pray that you will be able to stand up again, give us jokes and laughter, comfort and love, wisdom and strength...

Monday, March 2, 2009

Adi, my beloved boyfriend, had an accident close by my house. He is now hospitalize. Critical condition, severe head injuries. He's now in a coma and in an ICU. Please pray for his safety...

I'm afraid to sleep now, I just hanged out with him the whole day... *cries* I pray that he's going to be ok...