Graduation

I know it's very late. I just felt like it's best for me to type things down now. I've been extremely busy recently. Got a whole lot of things to do at work and in life. Work is a bitch sometimes but I guess I need to adjust to that. Life have been tough and tiring but there will be something really big going to happen to me.

A few years ago, I guess when I was a pre-teen, I've made a promise to my mom that I will get into the University and graduate so that I could have a steady job and help my family. Tomorrow afternoon, I'll fulfill my promise. I want to see my parents watching me on stage of the Chancellor Hall and smile for my achievement. It may not be a degree or a masters but, what matters to me is that I kept my promise and I'll be the first child of my parents to be able to graduate. I hope that I've made them proud.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day, so I hope I won't fall off the staircase or something during the graduation...

And I'm fucking exhausted 'cos the school won't allow us to have rest.

Wish me luck!

Hearts: Fae/Vie

EDIT (10:17AM/ 30.10):

I had trouble sleeping last night. I kept waking up late/early at night. But at around 4AM was the one I want to talk about. I woke up with an extreme pain in my right ear, like a muscle that keeps acting up... but in your ear? I went out and checked in the bathroom and I felt something crawling inside of my ear. I knew, something is inside. I poured water until my ear is blocked and kept jumping while leaning my head to my right, making sure the water comes out. But it was painful 'cos that thing is now struggling inside. I ran to my room, grab my towel and covering my right ear while doing the same jumping thing. In a while, I looked the towel I was holding and found out that my ear had been invaded my a tiny black beetle. I freaked out of course! I was pissed off that this insect have interrupted my sleep. The sleep that I need to get ready for today; Graduation. I threw the insect into the toilet bowl and flushed it while cussing in deep breath.

I went to sleep covering my ears after that... I hope that won't happen again...

Have I been hacked?

Alright, I was trying to get into MSN today and I found out that I couldn't, which is weird because I typed in my password and my email address correctly. I re-typed them over and over but still couldn't sign in. It made me wonder.

As I checked around my blog, Teah's blog says that I'm living in London and working with the NGO. For those who doesn't know me very well; I DON'T work for the NGO. I've NEVER been to London. My purse is RIGHT HERE with me. And if this happens to me, it is NOT my nature to ask for money from my friends via email or face-to-face. That's just not me.

I texted Teah about this and it turns out to be a serious case. I couldn't even change my password!

Man, I'm having a tough week.

A Some-what Short Rant #1

I hate it if my love ones starting to argue with each other. I hate it when I got to be stuck in the middle and have to decide which side to be on. I hate thinking that they won't get along or don't give a f*** about how I would feel if anything happens to either of them when sh** like this happens. Please, STOP IT!! It's pressuring and it's slowly killing me. If you guys love me (like or whatever), do me a favor and SHUT THE F*** UP with your ego and for once, consider my feelings. I don't want to lose anyone. You have no idea how painful it will get for me when I lose someone I care the most. Just please, at least, try to get along. I get this kind of stuff a lot at home, family members included. There are a lot of shouting, screaming, beating and abusing. It's haunting me and knowing the fact that it's going to happen to the people I love, It'll break me.

I love you guys so much. Please, think twice before you react and think about others too.

p/s: I'm working on the 14th and today's already sh***ing me to enjoy my last 2 days of freedom. I wish I could enjoy them but seems like I couldn't 'cos what had happened to me recently.

End of Rant

I fear of...

Howcast: 'How to Take Care of Yourself When You're Sick

Useful and entertaining stuff.

I have been sick for 4 days straight. I couldn't sleep properly for those whole nights 'cos I kept feeling cold and hot, with and without blanket. Just when I finally fall asleep, this dude was calling up looking for someone and I told him that he got the wrong number (I was speaking with a painful throat) and this dude wants to 'berkenalan', kept asking if we could meet. I looked at the time and it was almost 1AM and I thought 'What the f***?' So I asked him if he could speak in English and he said yes. I told him, slowly and clearly that I am not feeling well and I hadn't slept for days but he kept on blabbing mindless things (I don't even understand what he's saying) and kept laughing dorkishly... NOT the sexy one. I told him goodnight and I slept after that.

It has been 4 days that I felf that my nose is blocked (but I could still breathe through them) and my throat hurts whenever I swallow (which affect my nose). Everynight I have migraines before I sleep and have that temperature thing going on.

Oh Doctor,Doctor, what's going on with me?

Adi came to visit me, it's been days that he's been doing that. I found this very sweet. And we're going to visit the clinic to check what the hell is wrong with me.

p/s: A friend of mine says that I'm fragile, always end up being sick. Is this true?