Having New Stuff Cheers You Up

And that's kinda true too. It was a little unexpected. I went home and realize that my room finally got aircon. Yay~ But my room was hella messy 'cos they removed my table where I put most of my stuff. And later after that, my mom forced to go to the bank with her (for about 6 times now since last week?) and there's this music store next to the bank and I told my mom that I wanna 'survey'. So I looked around and found what I like. They asked me to give it a try and it's not so bad. Next thing I know, my mom immediately bought it for me... >w< Thank you, Mommeh.

So I placed the new keyboard (It's a Casio [even though I wanted a Yamaha or Roland or KORG] CT-810) to where my table was before. It looked nicer there... and I don't where I could put my other stuff (the stuff that used to be on the removed table). So, in the end, I put it to the side 'cos my mom suggests I should buy a cabinet.

I talked to Adi in the phone for about an hour. Trying to refresh his memory after the accident. He forget things like Faiz's real name (but he remembers his nickname instead. 'Combat'), the date yesterday and some stuff about his camera and his red car.

In the evening, Mom wants to bring us out for dinner, for once. And we ate at PizzaHut~ I haven't eaten for a quite a while. (I'm sure more than 4 months). It was phaaaan~ It's funny that we ordered so much and yet I still have room to eat more. OwO Boh.

Went home, wear my PJ's and started to play the keyboard. Getting the hang with the system. So far, I'm pretty cheerful yesterday. ^w^

I like JellehBelleh... (look at my status on fb. The song was in my head while munching on them.)

TEAH! NAD!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU GIRLS!!! XD

... Mmm...Lemon flavor.

The Things BFFs Do

Yeah... We tend to be VERY dorky. Well, that's about a decade of BFFs for you~

PS: I love you girls. *Huggles.*

My back is killing me. I should really stop carrying too many things to school everyday. It's painful now. I should try sitting on a chair when doing artworks from now on. Or a bed or something.

Anyway, here's something new. Not much but I wanted to make a tribute. Just to say thank you to him for that little girl in me. :3

Click on the photo for my tribute. While you're at it, visit my gallery. XP Promo lah tu.

Bah. I'm gonna go downstairs and eat with Qilah. Ia pajal. She wants to steal my art.

Buktinya:

The last day of 'extended' school holiday. Tomorrow's a working day. Well, good things must come to an end. XD I'm gonna spend time on doing my lesson plan, and by 2PM, got this BJFA-UBD thing going on in UBD. Since I'm a senior, I'll have to be there. XD

And I had my haircut last Friday... and truth to say, I'm not completely satisfied.

Yeah, I just woke up. I brushed my teeth alreadeh~

Maybe I'll get some bangs? And I tried asking them to color my hair but it doesn't work. So, perhaps, next month I'll get that done using professional tools. Saja, spoil kan diri, as advised from Ka.Tini. XD

Maybe I'll bring my guitar later?

I was just browsing around in my deviantArt and figured, 'why didn't I just put up my recent art post?'. So I'm gonna do it. Just to fill this darn quiet blog. >x<


So there you have it. I made this last night from 5 and finished it around 6. I should've just kept drawing 'cos I realize that there are bunch of portrait artists out there spending about 6+ hours finishing one portrait. I usually spend 3 hours max. I'm complaining? Yes. Well, I feel that the more time I spend on drawing a portrait, the more detail it'll get. Reason why I didn't spend 7+ hours on an art? I don't know.

It's good to draw again. I missh it SO much! I may be busy this week during the hols but I don't give a shit. I'm gonna draw as much as I WANT! XD

And oh, visited Adi just now. He's healthier, noisier too. His left eye is now alligned with his right eye. As I left, he yelled some more. I gave him an mp3 player and he fell asleep.

Now, I feel like coloring my hair red and put some highlights on...

I Wanna...

I wanna do something a little special today. Like wearing a skirt and make me feel 'girly'. I wanna appreciate life. Just to celebrate Adi's 28th birthday today. :3 I wanna sing, I wanna be dorky, I wanna clean my room and make it look pretty so I could come to my room feeling relax and stress-free. I wanna let him know that I want to smile the whole day today 'cos I am blessed that he's alive and that he exists to change my world. I wanna blow bubbles in the wind, and remembered the time when he sat next to me, admiring the sunset. And take photos of nature and moments.

I wanna let him know how much he means to me.

Happy 28th Birthday, Ayg.

Get well soon, Sleepy Bear.

It's been a while...

Alright, I don't want to make this blog dead 'cos I don't want that to happen. Been busy with work and there are tons of stuff that I need to think about.

There are also a bunch of things that I want to do. Just recently, I want to keep learning music. Be better at my guitar skills and also playing the keyboard. Been reading notes and scores recently. I even requested a music room at school so I could teach kids music!

And I'm thinking, maybe I'll study again and if possible, take up a course on Music and Drama for Primary Schools. Hopefully they have that.

I still want to be an Art Teacher. But I was adviced not to. I could see being an English teacher wouldn't do me any good. ('Cos I, myself, not that great in English).

So~ to sum all up, I'm still a busy-busy person.

And oh. My right wrist have been hurting for almost a week now. My wrist is like 'Oh, let's make myself painful for now!' and it did.

It feels a little better though, but I have the hardest time getting dressed or picking things up.

Well, my little sister's single is already out last month and I heard a lot of people liked it. I'm so proud of Qilah... or Qeez, whatever. So I put up her song at imeem and put it up here so you guys could have a listen. Hehe.

Been a busy bee. Been a workaholic recently and I barely have time to do things that I want (well, I spent my free time checking FB. >x< The hell).

Anyways, I wanna draw and make music again. Can't wait for that keyboard I'm eye-ing since a few weeks ago. I wanna try practicing my keyboarding/piano skills.

And Adi's b'day is this 25th (and Nad, I remember your b'day too 'cos you're my unicorn) and I hope he's well enough so I could celebrate his b'day in the hospital or something. I wanna buy him his b'day gifts. Just don't have the time to shop around to buy gifts. TT.TT

I feel that I've capsized.

Your Deep Sleep

Hey. Sorry for not updating this blog for so long. Things have been really busy here. I rarely have rests. as well as having time for myself. Don't worry, I still have the time to take care of myself like... eating and breathing.

I'm just too busy to make people happy. Like what Adi did before the accident. So, I'm doing this for him. If you're wondering, he's doing fine. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Too much to tell what's going on.

After all this, I'm thinking what will happen next. And it makes me wonder, have I been a good person? Before and after the accident? Truth to say, I feel like I've lost a lot of things.

I lost Hisyam. I almost lost Adi (Syukur Alhamdulillah that I didn't). I don't want to lose anything and anyone else. It's too painful.

So, is this pain?

It's hard. Very hard.. I just wish I have someone to support me.. I just can't keep being strong like this...

I feel so lonely.

It has been a week and I stared blankly on this blog. Thinking what to type and what to say. Since that day, things have been going down hill. It was hard and I admit, I felt lonely without him. I'm sure no one knows how it feels like but I'm telling you, it's difficult.

He is progressing though. His lungs and ribs were fractured and he has internal bleeding in the brain when on the first day. Three days later, his lungs and ribs are healing quite quickly. On the 5th day, they decided not to put him in sedation. He was in a lot of pain. He was sweating so much even in a cold room. But I get to see his eyes and he got to move a lot. Pain is gain, they said. And with this, he is half-awake. They tied his up, to prevent him from pulling the wires off him. I wish I could help him.

I came to visit him everyday and I get to see his condition. I have to say that he's doing well. I think in another few more days, he'll probably start talking and smiling. The things that I miss about him.

All I could do now is to visit him everyday, wait hours before visiting hours and I'll be beside him, stroking his hair and forehead, cleaning him up, sing him songs, talk to him and wiping his tears away... anything that I could do ease his pain.

In my relationship with Adi, we believe the word 'Love' is extremely strong and we, ourselves, thought that it's not the right time to say it to each other just yet... this has been gone for 4 years. But with this situation and the things I do for him, I hope he'll be able to see what my love has got to offer...

Get well soon, ayg. We; your friends, family, students and myself, will keep praying for you and we pray that you will be able to stand up again, give us jokes and laughter, comfort and love, wisdom and strength...

Adi, my beloved boyfriend, had an accident close by my house. He is now hospitalize. Critical condition, severe head injuries. He's now in a coma and in an ICU. Please pray for his safety...

I'm afraid to sleep now, I just hanged out with him the whole day... *cries* I pray that he's going to be ok...

As Promised...

I'm suppose to upload the photos here so, why not I just do it now?

Group photo, from left to right: Combat, myself, Riku, DK and Afif

I SO wanna put up more but fear I need permission from the photographers. Special thanks to revivephotography and RedChokolate. We love to work for you guys again. :3

And, oh, I uploaded two new songs. Please keep in mind that the song is not edited and is not a multi-track. These songs are recorded directly and live. So, be gentle. :3 Hope you guys like it.

The Gist of What's Going On...

Well, a few days ago (maybe a week?), things have been really tough, stressful and devastating... and for that, I turned it all around. I wouldn't want this kind of attitude to pull me down even further...

So I've been working out...

No, seriously, I work out...

I may not be an athletic person (although, I was when I was a kid) but I just need to do something positive and healthy.

And so, I went jogging almost everyday now. I try my best to eat properly. I ate supplements. I joined Yasakoi, the Soran Bushi. It's a Japanese dance which requires tons of stamina, strength and balance.



I felt that we did much more than this. But basically this is what I have been doing for quite a while.

And I'm addicted to it. I can't sit at home. I just have to get out from my house and do some jogging or do some yasakoi alone. I felt that it's best I just shed some sweat. I hate it back then but now I think I'm liking it. XD

Anyways, aside from exercising and yasakoi-ng. I've recently did a few covers of other bands and a few singles from my band. It went successfully and Yazin (my boss) was satisfied. I will post up the songs on imeem once I get the CD is with me. I hope you all will like it. Here's what we recorded:

1) Breathe Today (Cover) from Flyleaf
2) Crushcrushcrush (Cover) from Paramore
3) Let it Go by Daily Dose
4) Memory of You by Daily Dose
5) Moth to a Flame by Daily Dose

I swore we might have recorded 'Papa Don't Preach' but I'm unsure about that...

And as promise, I'll post up the 'stock'ing photos later once I'm home. (It's in my pendrive and it's at home. >x<)

Later~

'Leave Out All the Rest'

'I've never been perfect, but neither have you'
- 'LOATR', Linkin Park

This line have been repeating itself over and over again since this morning. I want to make it stop. Sigh.

Things haven't been great. It's hard. I wish I'm a better person.

p/s:

Model pictures will be up soon. Thanks to revive and RedChokolate.

The Very-Late January Update

Hey. It has been a while. Happy 2009! And Happy Chinese New Year!

Working is a bitch. Still coping but things get better. Sick now but feeling better too. Syukur.

Uh, I wrote so much just now but my laptop crashed so I have to rewrite this whole damn thing.

Too lazy for that...

Anyhoot, I promised Teah that I would post something up for her. It's kinda awesome. :3

This is Taffy Tami. She has a special gift.

Flip her skirt and she has no legs! But there's more!

She's now... uh... upskirted!

This is her yellow topping hat

Tada!! Taffy is now a cupcake!

I used to have this exact same doll when I was 6. I lost it when we were moving out. It has been 17 years. Not a while back, Faiz told me that he found it selling at Giant. I was psyche and bought the doll immediately (well, a few days after). I was happy. I have that childhood feeling again. It was nice. And this doll have that same smell like before too. It's sweet. Still the same. Ah... memories. XD

This doll have been my childhood friend. And I've found her.

Anyway, will update if something interesting going on. Trip to Singaland story will be up soon too. :3 Hope that I have the time for that. But I'll trying my very best, people!

<3 yous~
Vie/Fae/Riot

First Timer

Like Adi told me last night, today there's going to be a lot of 'first times' for me... He mentioned:

- First time flying (YES! I'M VERY NERVOUS!! I'm not afraid of heights though...)
- First time abroad other than Malaysia (Yay!)
- First time away from family (yes, oh so true..)
- First time going with his parents (Yikes!)
- First time to go there...

Well, there will be a bunch of first times for me there. So I'm both excited and nervous. LOL. I just hope that I have a good time there. I need to buy a bunch of souvenirs too. Hehe.

Anyhoot, next time I'll post up some pictures after my 3days travel. I even got an notebook to write down stuff. So, I hope I reach there safely and having a good time.

Wish Kaza and myself some good luck.

Love,
Fae/Vie

The Updates or December '08

The Reading Updates:

Currently I'm reading Teah's books 'cos I feel that I should really catch up with literature. And, Teah, THANK YOU!!! I fell in love with John Green instantly! I love reading 'Looking for Alaska' (although, the ending was kinda... uh... plain? No offense, it's still a good book). Reading that book makes me laugh and cry (literally! I cried!!). Now I'm looking forward to reading 'An Abundance of Katherines'. I already love the storyline. Hope I could finish them up. XD

The Activity Update:

Well, other than reading John Green books (I'm SO getting Paper Towns when I'm away), current events with BJFA-UBD is still on. The upcoming event is the coolest and it will keep me busy since I started working but I won't stop attending and helping out with this event. It's Japanese Pop Culture Week, which held in March. The cool part is that I (with some other members) am in-charge with the Cosplay booth (cosplay; costume + play = cosplay, to dress and play the role of a character from anime, books, manga, games, etc). There are several categories of cosplay in this event:

- Maid
- Anime
- High School
- Ninja, as Naruto...
- Modern Fashion
- Kendo Girls from Bamboo Blade (hence Anime)
- Akihabara (Japanese geeks. My president came up with this. XS)

I'm dressing as four of the following categories; Maid, Anime/High School (I'm combining as both), Anime, Modern Fashion.

Maid
I'm gonna buy that myself (because too many ruffles, too fussy to make for a beginner like myself). Maybe dressing as Gothic Lolita Maid.

Anime/High School
My friend and I (June) became partners for this cosplay. We're dressing up as our own character from the game 'Kingdom Hearts 2' in High School form. I'm gonna make the skirt myself but I can look for the shirt elsewhere (since it's the end of the year, it's easier to find. XD)

Anime
I'm dressing up as my own design of Red Riding Hood. But I changed the name to 'Red Riot Hood'. This shows designs that I have came up with which is also partly cosplay (because I create the designs and sew them myself)

'Red Riot Hood'

I have made the hood with June 2 years ago, so I'm gonna use that. All I need to find is the right fabric and color and also those boots (so comfy that I thought they're sneakers. XD)

Modern Fashion
Also known as Harajuku. This is, by far, the easiest that I can get. It's all about 'Mix 'n' Match' in your closet. XD

So, I'm starting to learn how to sew clothes. I have taken a lot of tutorials and researched for a while now. So... all I need is my salary (which is not out yet since I started working... >A<)


The Random Update:

A certain someone was so kind to me that he bought me: LINKIN PARK'S ROAD TO REVOLUTION CD/DVD!!! I was so hyped up! He even got me a poster of the guys. I'm so HAPPY! (And still a dork).

The usual gist of me taking pictures with LP's CD. XD

LOL! Being my dorky lover self. XD

Oh, I found out where I'm going soon this 24th til 26th... I'm off to Singapore. YAY!! I've never been there and never flew anywhere. So it's going to be my first time. Hehe.

Laters,
Vie/Fae

Taught by a Pro

Today we had a function at my place so most of my family members were here. We even invited P2F contestants and they did a WHOLE lot of karaoke-ing (what they do best, XP). I invited Milin and so he brought Puan Lili (she's a judge from the show and also a singing coach). I was told to sing and in the end, we practiced singing.

My flaws? Well, I just need to open my mouth a bit more and try to make some songs as dict-able as possible. So, I feel like I should research on how to sing properly and asked Milin to coach me. XP

Now that I realized my flaws, I'm not sure if I should send my CD to RTB for audition. XwX

And am I really a good singer or not?

Nyah~