I'm suppose to upload the photos here so, why not I just do it now?
Group photo, from left to right: Combat, myself, Riku, DK and Afif
I SO wanna put up more but fear I need permission from the photographers. Special thanks to revivephotography and RedChokolate. We love to work for you guys again. :3
And, oh, I uploaded two new songs. Please keep in mind that the song is not edited and is not a multi-track. These songs are recorded directly and live. So, be gentle. :3 Hope you guys like it.
Well, a few days ago (maybe a week?), things have been really tough, stressful and devastating... and for that, I turned it all around. I wouldn't want this kind of attitude to pull me down even further...
So I've been working out...
No, seriously, I work out...
I may not be an athletic person (although, I was when I was a kid) but I just need to do something positive and healthy.
And so, I went jogging almost everyday now. I try my best to eat properly. I ate supplements. I joined Yasakoi, the Soran Bushi. It's a Japanese dance which requires tons of stamina, strength and balance.
I felt that we did much more than this. But basically this is what I have been doing for quite a while.
And I'm addicted to it. I can't sit at home. I just have to get out from my house and do some jogging or do some yasakoi alone. I felt that it's best I just shed some sweat. I hate it back then but now I think I'm liking it. XD
Anyways, aside from exercising and yasakoi-ng. I've recently did a few covers of other bands and a few singles from my band. It went successfully and Yazin (my boss) was satisfied. I will post up the songs on imeem once I get the CD is with me. I hope you all will like it. Here's what we recorded:
1) Breathe Today (Cover) from Flyleaf 2) Crushcrushcrush (Cover) from Paramore 3) Let it Go by Daily Dose 4) Memory of You by Daily Dose 5) Moth to a Flame by Daily Dose
I swore we might have recorded 'Papa Don't Preach' but I'm unsure about that...
And as promise, I'll post up the 'stock'ing photos later once I'm home. (It's in my pendrive and it's at home. >x<)
Hey. It has been a while. Happy 2009! And Happy Chinese New Year!
Working is a bitch. Still coping but things get better. Sick now but feeling better too. Syukur.
Uh, I wrote so much just now but my laptop crashed so I have to rewrite this whole damn thing.
Too lazy for that...
Anyhoot, I promised Teah that I would post something up for her. It's kinda awesome. :3
This is Taffy Tami. She has a special gift.
Flip her skirt and she has no legs!But there's more!
She's now... uh... upskirted!
This is her yellow topping hat
Tada!! Taffy is now a cupcake!
I used to have this exact same doll when I was 6. I lost it when we were moving out. It has been 17 years. Not a while back, Faiz told me that he found it selling at Giant. I was psyche and bought the doll immediately (well, a few days after). I was happy. I have that childhood feeling again. It was nice. And this doll have that same smell like before too. It's sweet. Still the same. Ah... memories. XD
This doll have been my childhood friend. And I've found her.
Anyway, will update if something interesting going on. Trip to Singaland story will be up soon too. :3 Hope that I have the time for that. But I'll trying my very best, people!
Like Adi told me last night, today there's going to be a lot of 'first times' for me... He mentioned:
- First time flying (YES! I'M VERY NERVOUS!! I'm not afraid of heights though...) - First time abroad other than Malaysia (Yay!) - First time away from family (yes, oh so true..) - First time going with his parents (Yikes!) - First time to go there...
Well, there will be a bunch of first times for me there. So I'm both excited and nervous. LOL. I just hope that I have a good time there. I need to buy a bunch of souvenirs too. Hehe.
Anyhoot, next time I'll post up some pictures after my 3days travel. I even got an notebook to write down stuff. So, I hope I reach there safely and having a good time.
Currently I'm reading Teah's books 'cos I feel that I should really catch up with literature. And, Teah, THANK YOU!!! I fell in love with John Green instantly! I love reading 'Looking for Alaska' (although, the ending was kinda... uh... plain? No offense, it's still a good book). Reading that book makes me laugh and cry (literally! I cried!!). Now I'm looking forward to reading 'An Abundance of Katherines'. I already love the storyline. Hope I could finish them up. XD
The Activity Update:
Well, other than reading John Green books (I'm SO getting Paper Towns when I'm away), current events with BJFA-UBD is still on. The upcoming event is the coolest and it will keep me busy since I started working but I won't stop attending and helping out with this event. It's Japanese Pop Culture Week, which held in March. The cool part is that I (with some other members) am in-charge with the Cosplay booth (cosplay; costume + play = cosplay, to dress and play the role of a character from anime, books, manga, games, etc). There are several categories of cosplay in this event:
- Maid - Anime - High School - Ninja, as Naruto... - Modern Fashion - Kendo Girls from Bamboo Blade (hence Anime) - Akihabara (Japanese geeks. My president came up with this. XS)
I'm dressing as four of the following categories; Maid, Anime/High School (I'm combining as both), Anime, Modern Fashion.
Maid I'm gonna buy that myself (because too many ruffles, too fussy to make for a beginner like myself). Maybe dressing as Gothic Lolita Maid.
Anime/High School My friend and I (June) became partners for this cosplay. We're dressing up as our own character from the game 'Kingdom Hearts 2' in High School form. I'm gonna make the skirt myself but I can look for the shirt elsewhere (since it's the end of the year, it's easier to find. XD)
Anime I'm dressing up as my own design of Red Riding Hood. But I changed the name to 'Red Riot Hood'. This shows designs that I have came up with which is also partly cosplay (because I create the designs and sew them myself)
'Red Riot Hood'
I have made the hood with June 2 years ago, so I'm gonna use that. All I need to find is the right fabric and color and also those boots (so comfy that I thought they're sneakers. XD)
Modern Fashion Also known as Harajuku. This is, by far, the easiest that I can get. It's all about 'Mix 'n' Match' in your closet. XD
So, I'm starting to learn how to sew clothes. I have taken a lot of tutorials and researched for a while now. So... all I need is my salary (which is not out yet since I started working... >A<)
The Random Update:
A certain someone was so kind to me that he bought me: LINKIN PARK'S ROAD TO REVOLUTION CD/DVD!!! I was so hyped up! He even got me a poster of the guys. I'm so HAPPY! (And still a dork).
The usual gist of me taking pictures with LP's CD. XD
LOL! Being my dorky lover self. XD
Oh, I found out where I'm going soon this 24th til 26th... I'm off to Singapore. YAY!! I've never been there and never flew anywhere. So it's going to be my first time. Hehe.
Today we had a function at my place so most of my family members were here. We even invited P2F contestants and they did a WHOLE lot of karaoke-ing (what they do best, XP). I invited Milin and so he brought Puan Lili (she's a judge from the show and also a singing coach). I was told to sing and in the end, we practiced singing.
My flaws? Well, I just need to open my mouth a bit more and try to make some songs as dict-able as possible. So, I feel like I should research on how to sing properly and asked Milin to coach me. XP
Now that I realized my flaws, I'm not sure if I should send my CD to RTB for audition. XwX
It has been 2 weeks that things didn't go well here and because of that, I'm too absorbent to myself and the things that happened to me. Hence, me forgetting the world.
And for that, I'm EXTREMELY sorry for my ignorance if it starts bleeding through. Now, I want to try and forget about myself and focus on others.
I know Halloween have passed but at least it's better late than never. I made a promise to myself that I would do something to my nephew; Zamri, during Halloween which I planned for few months. Hehe.
'Harry Putar' XP He's wearing my working jacket. I planned to let him wear my usual black jacket with hoodie but Qilah accidentally brought it with her to RTB. *curses* I drew the scar on his forehead. It's face paint.
Riding the 'supposedly' Hippogriff (did I spell that right, T?) That scarf was my first time knitting, very badly proportioned and Faiz placed it wrongly. Harry Putar was hyped up and I couldn't get a proper photo of him.
'Expecto Petronum!!' He was waving his wand (the one I made 'cos I was bored at home one day) viciously and yelling. I snap a photo that I wished it went well but instead, it was shaky. At least you got to see his priceless expression.
I didn't get to go jamming and dress up for Halloween 'cos I didn't have the time to create my costume. I hope next year I would. Hope you guys enjoy this.
Next victim: Sae'ed (Ian) as Santa Little Helpers. (evil grin)
Graduation was over. Instead of being a 'UBD-ian', I'm now a 'teacher'. It feels good to know that. Extremely good.
Graduation went well that day. I began working in school early in the morning and went off to UBD at 10+. Preparing things and went off graduating. In my head, during the time, was 'This is it." Looking at my friends whom I met in UBD, I realized how much things have changed in 3 years. And then I felt it; 'I'm going to miss UBD.' Not 'cos of anything, though, I just missed the fact of me studying behind the student's desks, listening to lectures and craving for coffee when we were sleepy in class and rushed our assignments. It was fun. It was a whole LOT of fun with the friends you've made.
Now I'm sitting on my staff table, thinking of what the children should learn and the responsiblities I'm holding as a teacher. Standing up infront of little kids and making sure that they're listening. It's a huge thing, frightening but... it makes you feel that you're all grown up.
I planned to take degree very soon but need to confirm this with someone to make sure I've made the right choices in life.
Here's some photos~ XD
My Diploma friends that I hang out with most of the time; Fen, Ak. Khairul Amilin, Han and myself. (Yes, I hang with myself. XP)
Psyche in getting the diploma! Lame. XP And I was wearing contacts.
I couldn't find my parents at the beginning of the ceremony. But it went well and my dad picked out the flowers for me.
June willing to come for OUR graduation even though she had hers that morning. Felix is next to me.
Well, now it's something new to begin. I hope this road won't be bumpy as it is at the beginning.
I know it's very late. I just felt like it's best for me to type things down now. I've been extremely busy recently. Got a whole lot of things to do at work and in life. Work is a bitch sometimes but I guess I need to adjust to that. Life have been tough and tiring but there will be something really big going to happen to me.
A few years ago, I guess when I was a pre-teen, I've made a promise to my mom that I will get into the University and graduate so that I could have a steady job and help my family. Tomorrow afternoon, I'll fulfill my promise. I want to see my parents watching me on stage of the Chancellor Hall and smile for my achievement. It may not be a degree or a masters but, what matters to me is that I kept my promise and I'll be the first child of my parents to be able to graduate. I hope that I've made them proud.
Tomorrow is going to be a busy day, so I hope I won't fall off the staircase or something during the graduation...
And I'm fucking exhausted 'cos the school won't allow us to have rest.
Wish me luck!
Hearts: Fae/Vie
EDIT (10:17AM/ 30.10):
I had trouble sleeping last night. I kept waking up late/early at night. But at around 4AM was the one I want to talk about. I woke up with an extreme pain in my right ear, like a muscle that keeps acting up... but in your ear? I went out and checked in the bathroom and I felt something crawling inside of my ear. I knew, something is inside. I poured water until my ear is blocked and kept jumping while leaning my head to my right, making sure the water comes out. But it was painful 'cos that thing is now struggling inside. I ran to my room, grab my towel and covering my right ear while doing the same jumping thing. In a while, I looked the towel I was holding and found out that my ear had been invaded my a tiny black beetle. I freaked out of course! I was pissed off that this insect have interrupted my sleep. The sleep that I need to get ready for today; Graduation. I threw the insect into the toilet bowl and flushed it while cussing in deep breath.
I went to sleep covering my ears after that... I hope that won't happen again...
Alright, I was trying to get into MSN today and I found out that I couldn't, which is weird because I typed in my password and my email address correctly. I re-typed them over and over but still couldn't sign in. It made me wonder.
As I checked around my blog, Teah's blog says that I'm living in London and working with the NGO. For those who doesn't know me very well; I DON'T work for the NGO. I've NEVER been to London. My purse is RIGHT HERE with me. And if this happens to me, it is NOT my nature to ask for money from my friends via email or face-to-face. That's just not me.
I texted Teah about this and it turns out to be a serious case. I couldn't even change my password!
I hate it if my love ones starting to argue with each other. I hate it when I got to be stuck in the middle and have to decide which side to be on. I hate thinking that they won't get along or don't give a f*** about how I would feel if anything happens to either of them when sh** like this happens. Please, STOP IT!! It's pressuring and it's slowly killing me. If you guys love me (like or whatever), do me a favor and SHUT THE F*** UP with your ego and for once, consider my feelings. I don't want to lose anyone. You have no idea how painful it will get for me when I lose someone I care the most. Just please, at least, try to get along. I get this kind of stuff a lot at home, family members included. There are a lot of shouting, screaming, beating and abusing. It's haunting me and knowing the fact that it's going to happen to the people I love, It'll break me.
I love you guys so much. Please, think twice before you react and think about others too.
p/s: I'm working on the 14th and today's already sh***ing me to enjoy my last 2 days of freedom. I wish I could enjoy them but seems like I couldn't 'cos what had happened to me recently.
I have been sick for 4 days straight. I couldn't sleep properly for those whole nights 'cos I kept feeling cold and hot, with and without blanket. Just when I finally fall asleep, this dude was calling up looking for someone and I told him that he got the wrong number (I was speaking with a painful throat) and this dude wants to 'berkenalan', kept asking if we could meet. I looked at the time and it was almost 1AM and I thought 'What the f***?' So I asked him if he could speak in English and he said yes. I told him, slowly and clearly that I am not feeling well and I hadn't slept for days but he kept on blabbing mindless things (I don't even understand what he's saying) and kept laughing dorkishly... NOT the sexy one. I told him goodnight and I slept after that.
It has been 4 days that I felf that my nose is blocked (but I could still breathe through them) and my throat hurts whenever I swallow (which affect my nose). Everynight I have migraines before I sleep and have that temperature thing going on.
Adi came to visit me, it's been days that he's been doing that. I found this very sweet. And we're going to visit the clinic to check what the hell is wrong with me.
p/s: A friend of mine says that I'm fragile, always end up being sick. Is this true?
When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. Don't resent me when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory. Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest.
-Linkin Park's 'Leave Out All the Rest'
I love this song so much that I'm never tire of hearing them. =3
Anyhoots, I'm just missing someone really badly even though I just met him this afternoon and hang out. I just found out that he won't be coming over as much. I'm so lonely. I need a hug. Hehe.
Well, got my exhibition earlier and I didn't do the arrangement as well as last time but overall, it's not that bad. I gave Miss Kono her gift and she really liked the color ('cos I know she loves earthly colors). Went to Charcoal (instead of Misato) for sungkai with Bobby, Herry, KC and Kaza. Hang there for a while and being friendly with the workers there.
I wished I could spent more time with that person... sigh. I'm gonna miss you!!
I finally got Lacey back. She's looking all confuse as her memory has been erased. LOL. I made that sound so weird. I named my laptop Lacey 'cos I was bored, she (yes, she) was reformatted 'cos I believe it's time for her to do so since she kept on shutting down whenever it's heated.
So I'm going to put things back in, install what I need and try to take care of her properly. I've been using Delilah for sometime now and got used to her too. (Delilah is Adi's lappy)
And today (later during the day time), Adi and I are going out for a date. Not those usual important date that we usually had, this time, we're just gonna relax and enjoy our time together. That's a good date, right? Planned to cut my hair and trying out some new style. I'm excited!
Although, I haven't got him anything for the big day yet. I hope that certain 'gift' will be up soon.
It's weird. I woke up this morning and go, 'Urrrrgggghhhhh, I wish I could sleep more but this damn temperature is killing me.' It's a hot day and I lie there on my bed, all sweaty. Maybe it's that weird dream that I had but couldn't remember.
I got up, showered, replied my student's text about puasa. Haha. I chatted with a 9-year old. It's funny that I'm all grown now. Adult.
I went online, looking at the usual things; Deviantart, mails, YouTube, etc. It slowly brings me to Linkin Park. Laughing and enjoying the pictures the fan made. Creative and great. I looked at their videos and laughed as the guys fooling around. It occured to me that I took out Meteora and played it on the laptop (Delilah) and listening to them while browsing about Linkin Park.
As I listened to one of my favourite songs; 'Breaking the Habit', my heart pumped really hard, beating among my chest, I smiled. A sudden rush in me; my dedication, the motivation I use to have. That certain feeling I lost. I whispered, 'Welcome back.'
My hands are still shaky with this feeling. Being hyper, smilling all the time, and that creativity started to build in (and also my stomach grumbling). So I guess, I'm going to draw a whole lot of things tonight. Haha. I'm glad that I'm back. And I felt good, extremely good.
It's Ramadhan. A month in which you have to be patient through hunger, anger and any other things that had or will happen to you. Well, earlier today, God decided to test me out.
It was a hectic day; Ikebana, being a make-up artist, going through meetings. One of my family members provoked me today, saying mean things behind my back. After hearing all these things from my siblings, I was keeping all the anger inside but slipped out a few nasty words about this said family member. My elder brother was there with his wife and cute little Fian. Abg.Fir saw me being furious and immediately stroke my back and started 'nooging' my head jokingly. Instead of me firing things about this back-stabber, I was, instead, having fun for what he did to me and in the end we wrestled.
The wrestling thing was only for a few minutes, we stopped for a while to rest. But my fury was still in me after hearing the betrayal. Abg.Fir came to the rescue again by giving me his open arms with that smile on his face. I admit that I couldn't resist and hugged him back.
It felt good. It felt extremely good! I just found out that a hug could make me feel so calm from all the things that had happened. And from there, I realized how much I love my brothers more than I am to my sisters. I have always looked up to Abg.Fir as my role model.
I sometimes wish that I could have a great, role-modeled elder sister to look up to instead so she could understand my feminity. But I'm truly blessed for having such great brothers.
I was looking for some videos to kill my time while knitting when I bumped into Sesame Street. I was hooked watching them 'cos I have to admit, Sesame Street never bores me... except the parodies and lame edits made by other people. I laughed watching Sesame Street: Kermit News And Goody Basket.
CookieMonster looked cute with thet blonde wig and red hood.
Well, I have to continue knitting now. My cousin is leaving today and I planned to give him a scarf before he goes.
